OK, so I have to figure out how to exercise+work. I am continuing to take stairs whenever possible and am monitoring my food like a prison guard, but I want to sweat with the fat people on BL DVD tomorrow...except that skinny one who won...whatever her name is. I hate her. I want her to wipe that face off her head and stop smiling at me. IT'S NOT FUN. STOP SMILING. I secretly hope she will become fat again one day. That one day she will encounter one donut and then find herself on a massive Krispy Kream binge and then Bob walks in her house to check up on her and she is 400 lbs again and glazed. hehehe....Now THAT will get me through a workout! I just have to do it when Matt isn't home, I feel like it's enough for him to know what I weigh to the awful 1/2 pound that I would usually lie about, enough for him to see me counting out individual crackers for serving sizes, AND enough for him to endure the biological side effects of me adding all the vegetables and fiber (the collard days were ROUGH)...but for him to see me and all my jiggely glory jumping jacking and cursing my way to fitness...well shucks ya'll that just aint proper...I'm a lady!
Anyways, I must say, I spent most of the day nauseated everytime I put food in my mouth, I think I am allergic to food without grease, a crispy fried exterior, or peanut butter on it. Why else do I have no interest in finishing the last 3 cookies in my little 100 calorie packet? Old Meg would have eaten all of them in 30 seconds flat, and then cut open the wrapper and licked the inside.
Food Log:
Egg whites on whole wheat toast, brushed with butter...can you tell Matt was available for breakfast this morning?
Coffee
celery sticks, plain
carrot sticks, plain
1 serving whole wheat goldfish crackers 60 EXACTLY ( I counted them while Matt made fun of me)
turkey, honey ham, and cheese sandwich with boston lettuce on whole wheat bread.
add ons dijon mustard
100 calorie pack of chips ahoy cookies
diet dr.pepper
agua
Weigh in is coming up...I do it in front of boyfriend so I can't cheat....and I get that extra jolt of humiliation. Nothing is cuter than a fat girl on a scale screaming "YOU LIE! YOU LIE!" But he doesn't complain...I might even wear my "bread" shirt while I do it.
We can do BL video together!
ReplyDeleteSeriously Meg, you need Stephanie to tell you the story of her Atkins diet that landed her blacking out inside of Krispy Kreme... it is classic :) Good job on the diet and the food and the exercise. I am proud of you!
ReplyDeleteLooks like the first week is the hardest. But you seem to be doing a good job with your food log. Keep counting those gold fish. Paula gave me all these suggestions that the nutritionist gave Carl. I couldn't remember them all. But pretzel was on the list too. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteso I weigh every day- read somewhere that keeps you motivated---umm not when the weight isn't coming off- makes me want to binge!! It's been 6 days and I am starving- barely walk due to Bob kicking my booty- and I have lost 1, yes you read that right ONE FREAKING pound!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But maybe one night, in my sleep the fat fairy will come to take it away! Keep up the good work woman! I love you!
ReplyDeleteDon't weigh everyday. It only shows you that you are not losing every day. Maybe the fat fairy will come and visit tonight! I am doing Friday's only, I'd rather see the number once a week then every day.
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