Cookies and Trolls

So halfway through rehearsal my Director exclaims "I NEED COOKIES!" and proceded to send our assistants out to get a giant bag of cookies. I'm not kidding. They came back with $30.00 worth of cookies.

I stayed stong, I had 1 small cookie (I SWEAR!). I watched as 14 ravenous actors gathered around the bag of dreams, hope, and calories. Within 15 minutes there was nothing at my feet but a shopping bag with the packaging of macadamia, peanut butter, chocolate chip (2 kinds!), and oatmeal cookies...

It was a picture that could be the scene of what I can only assume would be post meltdown no diet Meggie. Picture me: Sobbing hysterically, mascara running down my face, Everybody Hurts by REM blasting on the stereo, shoveling cookie after cookie in my mouth until there is nothing left but the empty boxes they came in. Actually...I'm actually pretty sure I have experienced this...but with cake...and pizza....and french fries...and chicken wings...and a jar of peanut butter...and ice cream....oh lord!

No wonder I am fat!

I still feel like I have a totally warped view of myself though. I was looking through my SELF magazine, and there was a picture of a girl 5'5" (like me) and 190 lbs (like I was!)...she was a TROLL. I mean like looked like a Big Fat Loser Beginning pic. Here's the thing. I think I'm hot! the way I am now. I could stop this diet crap and be happy with me, but I wouldn't mind shedding a few...that whole Long life business, and to have a little less hanging over the belt ya know? Plus, I FEEL better. Maybe I am crazy...maybe I am a troll, but if I am...I'm ok not knowing.

Food Log
2 egg whites (35 cals)
1 slice of toast with olive oil (125 cals)
orange hot tea
crystal light peach mango green tea (10 cals)
peanut butter sandwich (400 smackers)
16 pretzals (110)
1 cookie (80 cals...so worth it!)
watermelon, cantelope, pinapple, and orange slices (150 cals)
3 large passion and green tea hot teas

xo!